went to Berghain last night, last night meaning 10am Sunday, to see my favorite DJ DVS1 play. Bhu really didn’t want me going, her wounds are still raw from the firing, but I have missed him twice now and just had to. I’ve been up all weekend working, so didn’t have much energy, but the place has really changed for me and I just could not light up. I used to feel such a great charge going up those intentionally magnificent stairs, now it just seems like an empty charade to me.

Tried to avoid going upstairs, where her old bar is; went in the main part of the bar but only snuck a distant glance at hers. Management thought she bitched too much about lack of support from them, but every other bartender who’s done a single shift says no ordinary human can do that shit F and Sat every week. It’s back by the bathrooms, where people do their drugs, and also crash on couches because they’re too fucked up, that’s the usual crowd there: a mess. Great decision, change it from your top money making bar to the place of rotating employee dread. It’s costing them 2K or more per weekend for the luxury of not having her there.

and with that, my days of going to berghain are pretty much over. will go back in September to see my buddy Brendon Moeller play, but until then likely not at all.

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