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have a maybe nice gig this weekend. was originally scheduled for a large room in the city, was psyched about that, but has moved well outside the ring (the loop of train the surrounds Berlin), to a much much smaller room. I play 7-8am on the techno floor, then again 9-10 chillout in the open air floor outside. It’s a birthday party for a woman who used to run several techno clubs here for like 15 years, and she’s my new biggest fan, so it means a lot to be invited. I’m guessing the crowd will be her friends who are all long-time veterans of the techno scene, so it will a privilege to get at them with my best.

off to a picnic or two today, so far the weather seems pretty mellow for the day. bringing a frisbee…

in a week and a half, we train it to Amsterdam. Bhu’s band is playing at Robodock, a long-running festival of haywire robotics and industrial castoff mega-re-glomitizing. They play right after the main act on opening night. Can’t wait to see her rule that crowd.

went to Berghain last night, last night meaning 10am Sunday, to see my favorite DJ DVS1 play. Bhu really didn’t want me going, her wounds are still raw from the firing, but I have missed him twice now and just had to. I’ve been up all weekend working, so didn’t have much energy, but the place has really changed for me and I just could not light up. I used to feel such a great charge going up those intentionally magnificent stairs, now it just seems like an empty charade to me.

Tried to avoid going upstairs, where her old bar is; went in the main part of the bar but only snuck a distant glance at hers. Management thought she bitched too much about lack of support from them, but every other bartender who’s done a single shift says no ordinary human can do that shit F and Sat every week. It’s back by the bathrooms, where people do their drugs, and also crash on couches because they’re too fucked up, that’s the usual crowd there: a mess. Great decision, change it from your top money making bar to the place of rotating employee dread. It’s costing them 2K or more per weekend for the luxury of not having her there.

and with that, my days of going to berghain are pretty much over. will go back in September to see my buddy Brendon Moeller play, but until then likely not at all.

a couple small jobs have dropped in the last two days, one other that might end up being around a grand (though for wayyyyy too much work), and last night a cousin i haven’t seen in decades expressed some interest in my art, and seems committed to picking up about 2G of work, and already sent me $500! fuck yes, we are in the game again!

gonna be sitting in this chair a lot, i am once again loaded up with work. just ordered some L-Theanine yesterday; it’s supposed to make caffeine a good thing, take away the negative effects and make the good ones better. I really need to be able to regulate my energy better; i sleep so much in the daytime, then am up all night. daylight, want more of that please.

it’s now been two weeks, and we are still in shock. Bhu should be able to get a little help from the German dole, and some unemployment, but so far I haven’t been able to get her to move towards any office. a few friends are helping out financially, and believe me every bit helps. We made a big push to contact a ton of her friends last Saturday, and ask them to keep me in mind, help me make some connections, but so far, out of maybe 40 people contacted, we have gotten exactly zero responses, not even a “sure will have a look”. Not quite the puff of optimism she needed, but we’ll try some more stuff soon.

I made this page to list my skills and stuff; if any of you know anyone you can forward it to, now would be the time. Thanks.

and send a virtual hug or two our way. game of inches here, every bit.